The mind is a terrible thing.
The places it takes you for answers unknown can be to the most terrifying of scenarios.
As sentient beings we have extraordinarily low thresholds for ignorance, ambiguity and uncertainty, often prone to crazy possibilities which, in the moment, seem eerily more satisfying than no explanation at all.
But behind this problem is the actual one, a condition which reminds us of our humanity. Essentially, a control issue.
God only knows the truth of this.
Read that again, because therein lies both the answer and the solution all wrapped into one.
If God is omniscient and all-knowing, it’s the first sign that we aren’t. That’s not our job.
Today, this is where I am.
I needed to write my thoughts down. That’s how I work out tough times and reel myself back to sanity.