“If a widow has children or grandchildren, they should learn first of all to put their religion into practice by caring for their own family and so repaying their parents and grandparents, for this is pleasing to God.”
‭‭1 Timothy‬ ‭5‬:‭4‬ ‭NIV‬‬

Abandonment of the elderly is widespread in our nation and nearly unheard of in many others.

The fact that Scripture even addresses it tells us the problem is nothing new. Apparently, neglecting those who once cared for us has been a human failing for a very long time.

Years spent helping seniors survive—and, whenever possible, thrive—have sometimes left this warm heart cold and bitter.

I have watched families deliver Mom, Dad or Grandma to assisted living like a package left at the doorstep, then disappear into lives apparently too busy to return.

If you’ve followed me for any length of time, you’ve read my stories. I have been the only “family” present for Thanksgivings, birthdays, hospital stays and funerals. I’ve tracked down distant relatives more times than I care to remember, following trails of unanswered emails, disconnected phone numbers and people who simply did not want to be found.

For 11 years, I had the privilege of working alongside people who cared deeply and routinely went the extra mile for a generation very close to my heart—and sometimes painfully far from the hearts of those who should have been closest.

Scripture doesn’t describe caring for our elders as a sentimental gesture. It calls it putting our faith into practice. It is repayment of a debt of love. And God says it pleases Him.

If you still have a parent or grandparent, call them. Visit them. Sit longer than is convenient. Listen to the story you’ve already heard 20 times. Sacrifice something from your busy present for someone whose remaining tomorrows are growing fewer.

One day, if God grants us the years, we will become the old, the feeble and the infirm ourselves.

And perhaps one of the most sobering measures of the lives we lived will be whether someone learned from us that the elderly are not burdens to be managed, but treasures to be honored.

Sorry for the rant.

This one is personal.

There was a time when a person’s politics revealed much about who they were—their morals, character, virtues, knowledge, understanding of a complicated world, and capacity for empathy.

Their beliefs weren’t always agreeable, but they were at least well-defended, with deep roots and informed convictions.

Disagreement was an invitation to conversation. Sharp differences could exist alongside respect for the other person and a genuine curiosity about how someone intelligent and decent could arrive at a conclusion so different from your own.

You could leave such a conversation unconvinced, even more certain of your own position, without leaving enemies.

In their best form, those conversations were deliberate attempts at bridge-building, though neither person might have admitted it in the moment.

To understand another person’s politics was to try to understand the entirety of the person—the experiences that shaped them, the principles that anchored them, the fears they carried and the future they hoped to see.

Conversations weren’t punctuated by sound bites, innuendo, insults or arguments from the periphery. Shallow answers invited deeper questions. It was less about defending a party and more about discovering the mind and heart of the person sitting across from you.

The end game wasn’t simply to win. It was to test ideas against one another and perhaps discover something neither person brought to the table alone.

“What if?” wasn’t a threat. It was a bridge.

“Why not?” wasn’t surrender. It was an invitation to lay another stone in a path two people might someday walk together.

At their best, these were conversations among dream-builders—people pursuing a better life, a better country, a better world and greater opportunity for all rather than victory for one.

Maybe meaningful change begins again when we remember something remarkably simple:

Beneath the labels, parties, arguments and noise, most of us want many of the same things.

To be safe. To be free. To provide for the people we love. To be treated fairly. To have our voices matter. To leave our children something better than we inherited.

We may profoundly disagree about how to get there.

But recognizing that we are often arguing over different roads toward surprisingly similar hopes might be the first stone in rebuilding the bridge.

“One of those days Jesus went out to a mountainside to pray, and spent the night praying to God.”
—Luke 6:12

I have the attention span of a toddler.

Rarely can I offer a focused prayer beyond 10 minutes at a time before I either lapse into a deep sleep or become accosted by the day’s intrusive thoughts.

Though we all may agree the highest and best use of our time is that spent in prayer to our Creator, the fight to maintain it always ends in frustration.

And then I read that Jesus prayed all night.

I can barely imagine it.

But perhaps the lesson isn’t that I should feel guilty because I can’t pray like Jesus.

Perhaps it’s that even Jesus, with all that awaited Him, considered uninterrupted time with His Father worth seeking.

I keep trying.

Ten minutes at a time if that’s what I have. A sentence when that’s all I can manage. A whispered “help me” when words fail altogether.

Because prayer is no test of endurance.

It is relationship.

And I suspect God would rather have His distracted child keep coming back to Him than have him stay away because he thinks he isn’t very good at praying.

So I keep coming back.

Because that, too, is prayer.

Every 10 years, almost like clockwork, you can find me working the registration table at the Clark High School Class of 1976 reunion.

The funny part is, I only went to Clark for one year before graduating from Bonanza. But my sister is a proud member of the Clark Class of ’76, I know a whole lot of these people, and after all these years, I’m pretty fond of most of them. 😄

So every decade, I half expect the call: “Don, will you handle registration?”

And every decade, I’m glad it comes.

Tonight is one of those nights.

Fifty years have passed since the Class of ’76 walked out of Clark and into whatever life had waiting for them. Tonight, they’ll walk back through the doors carrying another 10 years of stories, laughter, losses, lessons, grandchildren, gray hair, replaced parts—and hopefully name tags with very large print.

There’s something pretty special about getting to grow old enough to grow older together.

Congratulations, Clark High School Class of 1976, on 50 years of life since graduation.

I may have only been a Charger for a year, but tonight I get to be one again.

Now, everybody form a single line and have your reading glasses ready. ❤️

After a quick self-check, I realize how much I’m missing.

There are some big empty holes I’ve never yet been able to fill in this life.

Social holes, mental acuities, physical abilities, so many key areas that with the time I have left, will likely remain unfulfilled when I take that final hike to heaven.

It worries me because what if I need something more while I’m still here and I don’t have what it takes?

Then I remember David, the scrawny kid who singlehandedly dropped a giant.
God intervened on his behalf even when he was voted least likely to succeed.

Then I remember Jonah, three days in the whale’s belly with a stutter, worried if he could resume his prophetic ministry once he was spat out in Nineveh.

Then I remember Daniel, the certain lunch for a pride of hungry lions who miraculously were not.

Then I remember Shadrach, Meshach and Abed Nego emerging from the convection oven with little more than a tan.

I’ve come to the conclusion that when God calls us to accomplish, He also equips us.

We are mistaken to believe we’ll ever enter heaven complete, for it is heaven that completes US.

Despite what I see, I have a God who supplies all my needs while i’m here at the moment they’re needed.

God sent me a SEAL team.

As a young boy, I was always aware I lacked bravado, courage, brotherhood, and confidence in taking risks. All were common features I observed in other males, men, and superheroes I most admired.

But luck of the draw, lack of male modeling, or some of both left me up the gender creek without a paddle.

If you miss some of those critical boy benchmarks, you’ll spend the rest of your life in make-up mode, hoping one day you’ll wake up the mature man you’ve always wanted to be.

I never did.

At least not the one I had imagined.

For years, I mistook masculinity for fearlessness. I thought real men knew how to fix things, fight things, build things, hunt things and, most importantly, never admit they were afraid of things.

They seemed to possess some secret handbook that apparently had been passed out while I was absent.

So I improvised.

Like most people trying to conceal what they believe is missing, I became pretty good at looking as though nothing was.

Life eventually taught me that bravado and courage aren’t the same thing. Neither are acquaintances and brothers. And confidence isn’t the absence of fear. Sometimes it is simply being scared to death and going anyway.

But those lessons took decades.

Then, somewhere in the later chapters of my life, God began sending men.

Not all at once.

One here. Another there.

Men with scars and stories. Men who had failed spectacularly and survived it. Men who had buried people they loved, fought addictions, lost marriages, raised children, questioned God, found Him again, and learned there wasn’t much worth pretending about anymore.

They weren’t superheroes.

That was precisely what made them heroic.

They prayed for one another.

They admitted when they were hurting.

They showed up.

They spoke truth when truth wasn’t particularly convenient.

They laughed mercilessly at one another and loved each other just as fiercely.

And slowly, almost embarrassingly late in life, I discovered the brotherhood I’d spent decades believing belonged to other men.

God sent me a SEAL team.

Not the kind that drops from helicopters in the middle of the night.

At our age, most of us would need help getting out of the helicopter.

Our knees hurt. Our backs complain. Some of us have prescriptions organized by day of the week, and nobody is storming a beach without first locating a restroom.

But we’ve been through some battles.

And we know where the bodies are buried because, metaphorically speaking, some of them are ours.

We’ve buried old versions of ourselves.

We’ve survived things we once thought would kill us. We’ve learned that asking for help requires more courage than pretending you don’t need it. We’ve learned that a man can kneel before God without becoming smaller.

In fact, that’s where he may finally become a man.

I spent much of my life wishing someone had taught me all of this when I was a boy.

Now I’m not so sure.

Maybe some lessons can’t be handed from father to son or learned from superheroes. Maybe they have to be earned through failure, forgiveness, surrender and time.

I never became the man that little boy imagined.

Thank God.

He was looking for a man who wasn’t afraid of anything.

God was building one who finally knew Who to trust when he was.

And because He apparently knew I wasn’t going to make it up that creek alone, He finally sent me some paddles.

They just happened to be carrying Bibles.

My SEAL team.

I bought a one bedroom home because it’s compact, quick to clean, and I can’t hoard too much stuff in it.

That said, while my best friend and I each live alone in our own homes after more than a decade together as roommates, we spend most weekends at mine with Butch and still enjoy our Three’s Company routine all together.

We all sleep in the same bed each night where the only kissing and loving involves Butch who insists on it.

Our arrangement sometimes raises questions and eyebrows in others except for us.

We get to enjoy our friendship and share love with our furry four-legged best friend all day and night and nobody needs to miss a good night’s sleep banished to a sofa because of someone else’s eyebrows.

Nobody recoils at a fart or a foot and they both take all the covers since I sleep hot year-round.

Maybe we take best friends to a whole new comfort level for some but it’s how we roll and get to be roommates once again, even if just for a couple days and nights a week.

Fifteen years ago today, I stopped using crystal meth.

I don’t share that for applause.

Fifteen years is just a date on a calendar unless it can somehow mean something to somebody who hasn’t made it to fifteen days, hours, or minutes.

I remember the man I was on my worst days.

I remember believing some things were too broken to repair, some bridges too burned to rebuild, and some consequences too great to overcome.

I was wrong.

Recovery didn’t give me my old life back. Thank God. It gave me the opportunity to build another one.

So today isn’t really about how far I’ve come. It’s about the one who is reading this wondering if they can make it to where I am from where they are.

You don’t know it yet, but you make it.

One day. One decision. Sometimes one minute at a time.

Keep going.

For 15 years as a psychotherapist, I was paid handsomely to offer observations about my patients—their behavior, thinking, reasoning, communication and ways of relating to others.

Then I helped them navigate toward a more adaptable, functional way of living.

Because they were patients, I worked under the assumption that their willingness to follow my lead was implicit.

After all, they sought me. I didn’t seek them.

When they were less willing, the road sometimes required a brief detour into conversations that helped them understand—and eventually ask me for—what I had been hired to provide.

Success usually followed.

And at the end of treatment, if I had done my job well, they left empowered, believing that they had, for the most part, become their own guide out of the darkness and into the light.

Those moments made my work an absolute joy.

Life outside the therapy room, of course, is different.

With acquaintances, friends and people I love, I could not be their therapist and, indeed, was not.

Still, somewhere quietly inside me, I suppose I have always sifted my clinical impressions of people through an undetectable mental-health sieve, continuing relationships with those who seemed to hold the greatest potential for genuine friendship.

Neither they nor my process was ever perfect. But, with the exception of some friendships acquired during my drug days—which ended 15 years ago this Friday—it has spared me much of the heartache and wasted effort that comes from trying to fix people who never asked to be fixed.

It was fair to me.

It was fair to them.

And, for the most part, it worked.

My struggle today is with the exceptions.

The ones who slipped through the sieve and remain in my life.

They are people to whom I cannot—and will not—offer unsolicited, however well-meaning, observations, suggestions or opinions. Yet they have maintained a presence nonetheless, and I have allowed them to.

My social circle is already the smallest it has ever been for this lifelong extrovert. Discontinuing even one relationship I have permitted to remain would represent a significant percentage loss of the whole.

But something changes as we get older.

Being accepted becomes less important.

Having people around becomes less important.

And the quantity of people in my life matters far less than the quality of those I allow to remain there.

Still, one of the hardest things for me is saying goodbye without actually saying it—by my absence, by no longer pursuing, by withdrawing the perseverance I once invested in relationships I had counted among the keepers.

There is sadness in that.

There is also wisdom.

Because sometimes the things most necessary for our survival are the very things most difficult to do.

Every relationship surrendered moves us, perhaps, a little closer to human loneliness.

I used to think that was something to fear.

I’m beginning to wonder if there are seasons when loneliness is not an emptiness at all, but a clearing—a place created when we finally stop filling every space with people simply because we are afraid of the space itself.

And perhaps, in that clearing, we discover that letting go of some people does not necessarily leave us with less.

Sometimes in that space, a tree grows and leaves a bigger space for God.

Buzzkill maybe but…

Might it be that we have mistakenly considered everything we have, own, and have come to enjoy within our American first-world life has been divinely provided us as the best tools to serve, save and evangelize and not for the immobilizing creature comforts they’ve become?

That was a mouthful of the obvious.

I love being an American and enjoying the overflow of blessings here, but I fear I’ve missed the point.

The bigger picture:
To whom much is given, much is required.

Living modestly at my age by many American measures, I’m still very rich by the standards of this world.

I fear I’ve misconstrued so much and missed the obvious point of life entirely.

I fear I’ve been worshiping comfort, bliss and safety, blinding me to needs of others without.

This theme is a developing personal story.

Stay tuned.